__I want to let you down, down DOWN. When I think about me I want to puke. I ain't a good person you know. I don't deserve you maybe, or you don't deserve me I don't know. But now, I... no I don't regret it's just that... our situation... Oh well excuse me, i'm not clever enought for you, or maybe it's you. You aren't how I want you to be and I don't want to change you so I walk away from you, in silence, in a deadly silence. Yeah I'm a slut, a bitch, all you want. I can't live like this because... because it's not the life I want! I don't have enought strengh for It I know, I'm so cowardly. I shut my mouth, as a perfect bitch. I hurt you and I don't care because yeah I'm not a good person! Yeah I want to puke puke PUKE. I'm a fucking horrible person! I break my own happiness and that makes me want to laugh. I suspect me of being a little bit schizophrenic. I look at me in the miroir, I cry and say to myself "You, fucking bitch I hate you, I want to kill you !" and someday I hug myself and say " You're my only friend, I love you"
And now you can hate me, and now I can hate me. Yeah I will miss It, yeah I will cry every night because I have done that. It's too harsh for me, to hard for you, so painful for us. And now it's the end, we have to say goodbye to each other. Yeah It was beautiful, but it's finish. Don't say that I have no feelings for you because that's false. Our situation is too difficulte, please understand me. It's better for both of us.


